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Wednesday, 23 February 2005
*bows*
thank you, thank you ;) but really, there must be some sort of beneficial application for this sort of thing, dont you think, alan?

okay, anyhow, this is my THIRD edit of this stupid rotten post, and now i have finally remembered to say that i am calling it a night, my fellow beings.

i will see you all later.

-rex


Posted by Alan Cross at 5:31 AM EST
Updated: Wednesday, 23 February 2005 5:36 AM EST
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hold your horses, alan
Topic: explanations
i was getting to that part of the experiment, alan . . . im glad youre so interested, even though you never seem to share much information yourself! ;)

anyhow, what i found was that the camera could indeed record my illusions . . . but i may need to test this effect on others to ensure that i am not merely seeing my own illusionary after effects.

well, the slush has finally turned into ice, i see. good thing people cant drive their own cars . . . that whole stupid american/cars/independence argument is so old hat. at least one good thing about our era is that driving--on of the most dangerous modes of transportation ever--is highly controlled by advanced traffic grids.

hopefully you folks back in time will all live to see a day without traffic jams.

-rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 2:32 AM EST
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hello
Topic: experiments/research
well, i did some research on the effects of my psychic camouflage on electronic recording devices. the results were surprising.

in most cases, until i tried to purposely focus my efforts otherwise, a video recorder would simply black out and would not record anything. the device was still recording though, but im assuming that my illusions may cause some sort of electromagnetic disturbance. ill test that at a later date.

anyhow, after failing to record myself, i decided to try and focus my energy not only on illusions, but also on the purposeful task of allowing a video camera to record it.

one thing i need to test is whether my illusions will remain visible to the human eye, even remotely or over a long duration. i will return shortly to discuss a bit more.

-Rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 1:45 AM EST
Updated: Wednesday, 23 February 2005 1:46 AM EST
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Tuesday, 22 February 2005
i like the sound of that
hmmm, professor reinhard . . . i certainly do like the sound of that. but anyhow, i cant help my obsession with at least being somewhat coherent. admittedly, i do not always use proper punctuation, and i rarely capitalize anything, but if and when i see mistakes in anything written(which i usually do), i want to fix them.

so who are you going to visit, anyhow? jessica dehring? she lives in chicago, you know.

anyhow, the net is also distracting me from my work, so ill talk to you later then, alan.

-Rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 9:40 AM EST
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i like your idea . . .
Topic: alan cross
. . . for the society of the free and easy. a group that promotes virtue(regardless of creed) is what this country needs. anyhow, you wrote this in your last post:

"youve become quite the author, eh? ;) thats quite a lengthy post, considering how you didnt want to save our readers(i.e. you and i) from a lengthy explanation!!"

i think you meant to say that i DID want to save the readers from a lengthy explanation. ;)

anyhow, ill post more later, i think . . .

~rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 1:16 AM EST
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from the depths of slumber . . .
Topic: experiments/research
. . . i rise. well not really, i woke up around 18 hours ago, actually. anyhow, ive been taking a bit of time for some personal projects, like our good friend dr. cross.

while immersing myself in some other projects besides my social experiments, i kind of forgot that i hadnt finished my entry from last week.

to continue a bit, if i wasnt clear in my last explanation, then let me say that my first attempt was a complete success. in regards to some of alans observations about my experiment, let me say a few things.

first, i will save our readers from a lengthy explanation of my experiments next stage(which i undertook immediately after my encounter with the young woman). in that stage i was able to pull off an accurate imitation of johnny tanuki, and in a heavily trafficked public place as well.

from the success of this experimention stage, i came to the partial conclusion that indeed my illusions do have a falloff effect on indirect observers. besides the success of the experiment, i also observed the passerby when talking with linda(the young woman) and they all appeared normal. i also didnt sense any suspicion from people, although i did get a few jealous looks from men who were envious that i was chatting with this woman. there were also a couple women who seemed to be staring at me or trying to catch my eye.

incidentally, my johnny tanuki impersonation was so good that a small mob began to form, all of them anxious to see me do some 'magic'. i actually became a bit overwhelmed by all of their energy focused on me, in addition to the strain of trying to keep up my appearance. im not a big fan of public places or large mobs of people, anyhow, but i did quite well.

the third stage of the experiment was a surprise not only to my 'fans', but more so for myself. it was reassuring to get a new idea from it, as well. you see, alan and friends, it is one thing to accurately impersonate another person, or to become the center of the masses attention, but . . . it would be more impressive to be invisible, like in my earlier experiment at the bus stop.

this is what occurred to me as i stood in the center of an excited, energized crowd: get out of here, you cant keep this up forever. its just a test, and it needs controls. quit while youre ahead.

and so i summoned everyones attention and told them i would try and perform an amazing trick for them, but i didnt tell them what it was. i still am not sure how i did it, rather than just willing it to happen, much like instinct(but obviously not an animal instinct). my desire to leave may have subconsciously pushed along the illusion, as well, but what happened is as follows.

i created what i call a birdie, which is merely a small distraction; its not sleight of hand as much as it sleight of mind. i derived that name fully from the unexpected illusion which follows

quite instinctively, i created a large egg which hatched into was a convincing illusion of a mythical bird called a phoenix(which im sure alan and others may be aware of). people stared in awe as this wondrous beast inspected the crowd, convinced that it was indeed a tangible creature and not part of my illusion. strangely enough, in this instance, i was able to see the result of my own ability, which i have never been able to in the past.

it made loud calls and flapped its large, red and orange wings, and i even sensed some fear from the audience. emotional readings are some of the most accurate ways of judging my success, and at this point i felt thoroughly convinced that nearly everyone in the audience was captivated by the phoenix and its magnificent presence, and so i quickly backed myself into a recessed doorway, creating an independent duplicate illusion of johnny tanuki, which i sent back out into the middle of the crowd so that they might not be confused by my real exit.

as i pushed the door open to leave, i watched as the illusionary johnny tanuki hopped onto the back of the illusionary phoenix, and then they rose into the air and flew over the crowd and then vanished into thin air. by the time i sensed my illusion had faded, i was already standing outside the mall, back in my normal, illusionless form. i felt very weak, and so i hailed a cab and kept his mind fogged enough so that he wasnt suspicious of my childish appearance as he drove me home.

after returning home pleased with my success but very tired, i stayed up as long as i could until fatigue finally overcame me.

over the weekend, i worked a bit on trying to organize some of my associates, but i also received an unexpected and mysterious piece of postal mail. as alan knows, the postal mail system is now under the control of corporations, and it is very inefficient and expensive to use. for this reason, it is always unusual to receive a piece of physical, postal mail, and when one does, it is usually from the government or some other entity that one would like to avoid.

in this case, the piece of mail i received was not signed at all and gave no contact information, but simply invited me to keep a look out for more letters in the mail. it outlined in brief a small organization that was trying to form itself, to help change things in society for the better. i found it very interesting, and in some strange way i look forward to hearing more. i sensed no negative energy while doing a clairvoyant identification of the source, so it seems okay for now.

anyhow, how was your weekend alan? do any more work on the soul, err, i mean, the STM????

-rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 12:20 AM EST
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Friday, 18 February 2005
taking a break
yes, youve guessed correctly, alan. ive been a bit tired lately, and so ive been trying to rest up and all. im also doing a great deal of research for my next experiment, so ill be checking back in periodically . . . no guarantees, though.

-rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 6:34 AM EST
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Thursday, 17 February 2005
the next level
Topic: experiments/research
well, today i decided that i would make the best of my newfound freedom, and so i decided to test a variety of my abilites in public. this is an account of what i did today, alan . . .

you are certainly aware alan, that in our era, children cannot go anywhere in public unsupervised or without permission. this is enforced by tracking children through their GPS ID implants, which contain a different data signature than adolescent and adult implants. in this way, they can better assure that children arent 'truants'(but as you can imagine, it is not the main reason. simply put, control is the main reason). but there are ways around this, but they are available mainly to myself and the few other Newgens around that werent 'cured' by the government.

well, luckily for me, i do not need to go to school, and i would be insulted at the suggestion. however, i am quite a responsible didact, and i can learn in more ways than just in the classroom.

so i decided to take a field trip of sorts to the mall, but although most people would be tempted to bask in that materialist waste repository, i decided to do an experiment. this experiment was intended to test the strength of my illusory effect, but as you will read, it became a battery of various other skills as well(much to my delight).

my goal was somewhat simple at first: approach a woman under the guise of an attractive man and succeed in getting her phone number(strictly experimental though, not for personal gain).

of course, since i cannot see my own illusory effects(i prefer the term 'psychic camouflage', as this term does not carry such a negative connotation), i relied completely on peoples physical and mental reactions to judge my success.

upon seeing my intended participant in the distance, i walked into a recess to my right and concentrated my best on visualizing who i would become, while at the same time keeping a mental picture of how close my participant was.

as soon as she was within 10 feet, i stepped out and casually turned in her direction, with a slight smile already creeping across my face. we were so close to collision that she instinctively dropped her bags as i had planned, and i smiled widely (but not mockingly or arrogantly) and apologized, picking them up but not handing them back to her yet. this was the incentive for her to stay and talk with me, and from the way she was staring at me, i could tell she didnt see a childs face and body in front of her. using a clairvoyance of sorts, i looked into the contents of her bag and noticed that some at the bottoms had been broken or otherwise damaged.

i said i was terribly sorry and that i would love make it up to her with a coffee or a drink sometime, my treat. this suggestion that i would 'treat her' might seem strange to older folks living in the past(literally), so let me enlighten. the trend for a while after the turn of the century was that women actually had taken on the supporter role more and more frequently, as men had been doing traditionally for centuries.

over time, women grew weary of this (understandably so, my fellows) and it became balanced out. men neednt feel obligated toward being the 'supporter' anymore, and if a man offers, women are usually quite tickled. with the increased impersonality and detachment of my society, gender roles become more blurred as men and women are mandatorily kept quite equal in many ways. essentially, gentle(wo)manly behavior isnt really predictable, so whoever offers is usually gracefully rejected, and then they agree to 'mutually contribute'.

anyhow, now that ive given an impromptu sociology lesson, let me get back to things. this woman not only kindly refused my offer, but she in fact offered to treat me. i accepted, and suavely asked for her phone number to enter into my handheld, and she requested mine as well. i rattled off a false number without a hitch, and it was accurate in regards to the area code where we resided.

we had a few other words of small talk, during which time she said that i resembled johnny tanuki, the not-very-japanese looking entertainer (sorry, only alan knows whom i speak of). after this brief chat we parted, and i made my way to a bench to rest and gather my thoughts before my next experiment.

this i will post a short while, because i feel the need for a small snack, even though i shouldnt eat so close to going to the Big Reflection. but i shall!

i will return shortly,

-rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 4:24 AM EST
Updated: Thursday, 17 February 2005 4:27 AM EST
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Tuesday, 15 February 2005
perhaps youre right
well, alan, your last post certainly was the epitome of incoherency. no offense, but that is why such things do not appeal to me in any sense, and i imagine they never will. but to each his own . . .

anyhow, today i had to let angelica go free . . . not as if i was holding her captive anyway, but you understand my meaning. i could no longer let myself feel responsible for her welfare and entertainment while i am deeply immersed in research and other important matters. angelica simply is not meant for this lifestyle, and i see that now. she was simply to needy, but then again i cannot blame her for being attracted to me. my charisma is a bit too much for the average female, especially one so plain and simply beautiful, like angelica.

my lack of regret didnt suprise, nor did my lack of sadness. the woman is simply better off forgetting about me, and it took quite an effort on my part to make her do so.

here departure was also a necessary evil if i am to advance my plans to the next level, if i am to bring my physical awareness up to the same steppe as my astral awareness.

sooooo alan, HOW was the testing for gods sake? i can sense youre still alive, so i wont joke about you dying from all that drinking . . .

-rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 11:29 PM EST
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stepping stones
Topic: big reflection
seeing as though i nearly stayed up the whole weekend, i felt compelled to take a short trip to the Big Reflection earlier(shortly after my last post), but i suppose it was for a reason. what i saw is something that occurs in the Big Reflection on occasion, and it is a type of dream where i am not completely in control, which is how the average person dreams.

you see, the view is quite amazing, because i can see a vast expanse of endlessness, but in this case thats not a bad thing. everything is very misty and verdant, quite rainforest-like but more inviting and tranquil. i can see various viewpoints at various times, and i have noticed an increasing sequence of plateau like 'stepping stones'.

my adventures in the Big Reflection occur sequentially, and ever so often i come up to a large mountain range or plateau in my dreams, which usually presents--along with its own hassles--a great set of obstacles for me to overcome. it has occurred to me that each time i successfully climb one of these 'stepping stones', i look back down at what i have left behind. what is behind me is always worse looking than what lies ahead of me.

interestingly enough, though, i occasionally get an 'aerial' view of things, if you will. during this i can see far in front of me, and i can see the progressively larger obstacles that lie ahead.

in the Big Reflection tonight, i saw farther than i have ever seen, and it was bright and perfect. it seemed like a worthy goal, but when i thought this i immediately realized that it wasnt the final 'stepping stone'. it couldnt be. darkness always follows light, and it just seemed too perfect.

over time, the meaning of all this will manifest itself to me. it just takes time, but tonight i finally scaled another plateau, and im on a new level. i need to take things one step further now.

anyhow, where are you alan? im guessing that you passed out as soon as you crossed the threshold . . . or maybe you just passed out in your mag-car when it arrived at your house. :) im curious to hear about the testing yesterday.

as for now, im returning to the Big Reflection. i just had to express my last visit in words.

~rex

Posted by Alan Cross at 5:40 AM EST
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